Walking Away from Juggling (Metaphysical Essay)

Woke thinking about the necessity to formally collapse the energy manifestation portal opened thinking how I had already been doing this just as an instinct and rolling it around in my mind a bit still just laying still having just woken - is this the right thing to do? and how do I know all this and should I consult an expert? then thinking no lay here and consult Source and that felt about right. So I did lay there and consult.

That led me to think about how a new energetic manifestation portal could be opened and then to thinking about for what then - after all the sky is not the limit - so I thought health, right, and yes that felt right. I thought too of wealth and thought to focus upon health for now so as not to get ahead of myself as I am feeling my through uncharted depths as it is - but, I became certain that this is not as I thought simply a bunch of nonsense and Abraham Hicks makes more sense than ever.

Then I following the path still having not moved my head from waking so as not to shake the spell and it led to trust in Source and I thought of that beautiful biblical line, "see the birds of the air and the flowers in the field, neither do they sow nor reap and yet their Father above does provide for them" and how that doesn't mean doing nothing, no it means trusting that what we do is supported by the universe itself not limited. I thought about abundance how that works about not giving in to that feeling of lack that makes me feel like I must clutch onto whatever it is I value or feel that I "have". Collapse the energy vortex in faith that if need be I can open it again - let it go, let it come, let it go, like the sun passing overhead descending into the earth and living in that faith in the darkness that the sun will rise again from the other horizon soon enough.

Then I thought wow right about Chakra energy feeling that same fear of lack that if I can push it up past the heart, I must then fight to keep it there for fear it will "fall" and I won't be able to get it back up. I had to laugh at myself on that one. I had felt intuitively best to keep in heart centered that is what feels best and it makes sense energetically because there is no effort in keeping it there only for me in pushing it higher. Then I thought fine even to let if drop down into the base Chakra for me anyway for life is for the living and romantic love and all of living for which I am so grateful and that the spiritual is in the carnal world, after all, everything is spirit, even the table I rap, rap rap my knuckles on here now.

So I got up seeking coffee and let everything collapse like a juggler who turns away from the juggling leaving the bowling pins to clatter behind him on the stage floor. Yea that feels right, too, time to make love to a cup of coffee.

Freshly Ground Brew (The Grinder revised)

Winding and Winding and Winding
Tightening down the grinder myself
All ground up now ready to brew
Smooth and silky and very fine
Smokey, nutty notes, perfectly ripe,
These grounds are ready to rock it

Blow on that cup and take it to your lips
Take a long, slow sip, close your eyes,
Let it fill your sinuses, let it go to your head,
I hope it's as intoxicating for you as for me
You don't have to say even if you like it -
Just tell me if you'd like to have some more

My Heart Is My Hero

How fearless, exactly, how strong, how indomitable, how utterly dauntless is this heart of mine?

"Raise every mast for full sail," says Heart.

"ah ..." Head is NOT happy, "O man common that never ends well - "

Shush, Head, Heart's got this.

"But what if there's a storm, what if there are shoals, where the hell are our nautical maps for these uncharted waters, Boss - THINK about this, for God's sake - "

Shush, Head, just look at the bright side, the sea air is going to rustle your hair, man. Take a deep breath - O wow you can taste the salt water on the air. Just breath! It's such a gift to be alive!

"We're going for it" says Heart purposefully, "if it doesn't end well, she'll just be the most perfect one to ever break me and I'll simply call that a significant move in the right direction. We came here to ply the seas, right, so if we're not going to sail then what the hell is the point".

Whoa, that's a long speech from Heart. I guess when you've been broken in so many places finally enough light gets in that you just aren't afraid of the darkness anymore.

Hear that, Head, that's put up or shut up - now come on, we got work to do, all hands on deck.

Believe in Your Heart

The average human heart weights in well under one pound, no bigger than your fist, it’s a baby, an infant, this helpless thing, non verbal but as precious as any new born infant you can fold into your chest ever so gently rocking and cooing the reassurances that the very best of humanity can bring to bear. The average beat the heart maintains from first breath to last is the metronome of the universe, make no mistake, not only pumping life’s blood through a hundred thousand miles of arteries, veins and capillaries, but pumping life through all of the vast universe itself – a miraculous and unfathomable thing, the heart. If you listen carefully, quietly, the heart does speak to you and with the exact same metronomic certainty with which it pumps life giving blood throughout the entire universe that is You.

“Everything will not be alright,” says the heart when you do listen, “everything already IS alright. Everything has always been alright,” the heart insists, over and over and over again, “and everything will always be alright – if you believe it,” the heart finishes so lovingly, so wise for an infant, “and you get to choose what you believe, my love, the heart suggests to you, beat after beat after beat, “so why not believe in me”.

The Venus In Scorpio Life (Warning Contains Adult Language)

Life's so much hotter when your heart's afire so I say lite that Mutherfucker up, burn down the house - life's too short not to BURN! 

If someone else don't dig your fire then they can just get the fuck back and be appalled from afar, how 'bout dat

The Astral Train Arrives: Manifestation

The dove does sit and coo softly in the afternoon
Under the auspices of an overarching shade tree
Sitting still and true my heart beating quietly now
The past and future they are such disheveled things
The headlong rushing search flying off and away
That fantastical forward momentum so long built
Flung off of me and away into some other place
As the train commandeered comes instantly to ease
Who cares where or why and the stars be damned
That energy stolen from the sun served me well
I have no regrets for all is fair in love and in war -
I know to whom and to what to be grateful now:
Thanks to our angels and guides and God above

A Cosmic Road Trip (Dissociation by Design)

Mind is in the backseat and he is NOT happy about it, let me tell you. It's a delicate thing with mind as he needs a lot of love and attention yet cannot be overindulged so I've never had children but I imagine it's something of that kind of balance?

"You know - " Mind begins and I shush him.

"Mind, honest to God, man, you did a great job of looking in the rear view mirror for all those years and I dearly love you, you know that right?"

"Define love," Mind says petulantly.

"Look, Mind, it's a team effort here, not all about you, man. Just look out the window and enjoy the scenery it's pretty cool, really beautiful countryside, a gorgeous day - just chill, Heart's got the wheel. He's the only one who really knows where we're going - Heart you know where we're going, right?"

Heart, never much for words, "O yeah. I got this".

See, Mind. Lie back into it, Heart's got this. You and me, we can just chill and enjoy the ride now. This is awesome, try to appreciate that.

I'm not certain how reassured Mind is but he's quiet for a change so I'll take it.