Fall 2022 Prose Poem by David Sky

Through days like stone and nights like forgotten waters, I walk across this sacred bridge made from my ancestors smooth, white bones. The bridge dissolves behind as the void of the abyss nips at my heels with each step forward. It is as if Source Itself draws me irrevocably toward some unfathomable destination. The Thing that I am become is hollow - bell metal - meant to be rung. Rung, my vibrations obliterate flesh and blood leaving only the deep, solid resonance of this hollow, metal bell itself ringing and ringing and ringing ...

US Pluto Return Update, November 19th 2022 - Retrograde Mars Squares Retrograde Neptune

In the US Mundane chart, Pisces rules the 4th House also ruled by the Moon so this is about the common people, we citizens – who are always the very last thought, it seems, with Neptune Ruling Pisces here, the fourth house is weak and in a personal chart often indicates someone who had parents absent if not physically then emotionally. This is where Neptune has been transiting since 2011 and now is in retrograde squaring for the 2nd time recently Mars in retrograde in the US mundane 7th House on the nineteenth only eleven days after the upcoming mid terms elections in the US. Mars representing all things martial by the 19th is well into its retrograde energy marching back through the house of foreign affairs and open enemies in the midst of what can be said to be perhaps the most tense time internationally since the Cuban Nuclear Crisis with then Soviet Russia some 70 years ago now. To note, in the mundane chart of the US, Neptune in 10th House of the government forms a close square to the 7th House Mars. I believe this energy directly represents the government always, recently and here on the 19th most particularly, massively deceiving the citizens of the United States of America. This, in fact, is such a part of the American psyche that many people even today would say, “Well, of course the government and the military cannot tell us what is actually going on and that is only for our own good”.

Not to forget Saturn by transit now direct in the US 3rd House of Aquarius and most relevantly here of communications for it is the mouthpiece of the government aka propaganda from my point of view not being a Patriot. Conspiracy theorists are merely those of us who dare question the veracity of historical liars which the US government most certainly is. Saturn is approaching a quincunx to the US mundane Mercury that is the planet of again most relevantly here communication, although transportation and commerce Mercury’s other meanings could be relevant at this time as well. To me this energy here will represent the people finding the propaganda at this point has a hollow ring to it – the government lies will be found to be particularly suspect at this time due to this quincunx between Saturn in Aquarius (Aquarius can be said to be the sign of The People) and Mercury in Cancer that always is seen trying to ease the minds of the people with its words.

The lunar eclipse in Scorpio will happen virtually on top of the US mid term elections that I believe will be fraught with difficulties and very most likely will not be resolved with a day or so as is usual. This eclipse happens in the US 12th House of self sabotage and hidden enemies – here go ahead and read internal enemies, those within the US government itself. This eclipse is also square to that transit Saturn in Aquarius and this will be the pressure that begins to chip away at the propaganda that the US government has been engaged in over this last year to epic proportions such that I have never witnessed in my life. Some staged event by the US government happening anytime between now as this is published and this mid term election is not only possible but I would say likely. This event itself may be what gets called into question by the normally complacent US public, I believe.

Now to consider Pluto on the 19th direct and within a one degree orb of its final exact conjunction to the Mundane Pluto at 27 degrees 33 minutes Capricorn in the US Mundane chart’s 2nd house. So in terms of this very big and profound energy of the US Pluto Return, we are at a critical phase that will surely speak to later events in 2023 destined to be the trigger year for this Pluto Return energy that will see the US transformed in some significant manner as Pluto again returns to within a degree of relevance to its Mundane position. Whatever happens around and after these mid term elections, likely in relation to the Ukraine conflict with Russia but not to rule out the hostilities now with China over Taiwan, I feel it is important to note that this will only be the beginning, perhaps to say a foreshadowing, of events to culminate in 2023 even going into 2024 around this Pluto Return energy for the US. The smoke, as it were, may not clear until sometime in 2025 when we get a real look at what this all will really mean.

Mars and Neptune make a final square just about as Mars clears it’s post shadow about the middle of March 2023 with both of them then direct and this is I will admit a bit of optimism on my part, even wishful thinking, but I think by this time the truth of things will be revealed in some significant manner and the truth of it is that the United States of America has long and still continues to cause most of the war and strife in this world and this time now of the Pluto Return for the US corresponding to a time in history when the US empire is in fall, as all empires do, constitutes one of the most dangerous periods in the history of humanity not due to China or Russia but sadly, sadly to me who once loved this country, because of our own government. While we the citizens are not responsible for this but victims, we will bare the consequences. I see the Pluto Return for the US as a Karmic Time and Karma is coming as it does without remorse, restraint or measure.

Trip Report Gila Wilderness, New Mexico - Four Grams dried psilocybin mushrooms

April 2008

Once I spoke to Eternity personified as a female Goddess possessing or expressing an infinite seeming love characterized by a kind of patience that I don't exactly know how to describe like some perfect or archetypal mother. At this time, I was under the impression that our Gaian Mother was my mother and this notion was quite dear to my heart, very important to me. In this experience under the influence of a high dose of psilocybin alone deep in a million acre New Mexico wilderness, came Eternity and I still can recall her voice - compelling. I was trying to pull away and she would say ever so gently but compellingly, "David, come back here, now, listen to me now" tapping simultaneously her nails upon something hard - I could not see her then in an altered state of reality physically unconscious but when I "looked up" at the direction I heard her voice coming from, I could see a classical white, Greek pillar behind which shone a bright light that if this pillar were not blocking, I felt surely would kill me. This light seemed to be her, Eternity, who spoke so gently, so insistently to me.

"David, you need to listen, I need to tell you something now" Eternity insists, tap tap tap tap, to get my attention.

"Yes?" I finally managed blinking looking at this pillar above me and the blinding white light behind it.

"She is not your mother, Honey. Do you understand".

I do understand, I understand it all even before she says and I begin to sob and I think likely actually began to sob, now in mid morning sun in the middle of an empty field, alone, next to the Gila River. My heart is broken like never before as if some final insult to my most dearly held delusion was just then stripped away leaving me as naked emotionally and spiritually as I was in reality there in that field. Of course, I thought, of course how did I not see this? I didn't want to see it. I couldn't see it. A child abandoned by by his father and his mother who had found the Great Gaian Mother of us All and clung to her thigh as would any abandoned child. When she put her hand gently upon my head and comforted me, that saved my life - literally. My love for her is the love of a child for his mother.

"David I am so sorry," Eternity is saying while I am still lost in convulsive grief, "but you must accept this if you want to continue your journey, you must," and I thought listening to her that I do accept it, I see the truth of it, feeling through my grief some odd sense of shame for not having seen it sooner, how foolish and childish I had been in my delusion. As if to comfort me, Eternity, also a mother, is saying, "She is the Mother of your body, David. The Earth Mother she gave you this physical vessel in which to invest yourself while in this physical incarnation so in that sense she is then the mother of your body but your eternal spirit as you know was never born so you have no mother or father those are mere constructs of this incarnation, this reality here, same as time, pain, loss, abandonment all those feelings and all the delusions of your flesh and blood life that She, yes, the Gaian Mother of your body, has made possible for the singular edification of your eternal spirit."

I "woke" then finding myself on my knees, naked, in the middle of a small clearing, having disrobed and apparently crawled out 30 feet or so from my camp under the pines, my face, neck, chest and belly covered in sand made wet with my tears and some got in my eyes and I am sitting on my knees and had been for I don't know how long. I try to stand but my legs are asleep and I pitch forward, face planting into the sandy earth. After some indeterminate length of time, just lying there feeling the warm sandy, earth against the side of my face, I stand up seeing my backpacking camp a few yards away under a Ponderosa Pine finding it vaguely reassuring, making some note that I am not, after all, completely naked in the wilderness. I have everything i need right there to survive and comfort myself even and in fact having been out this now the fifth day having in all that time not seen another soul. I stumble then forward about 20 yards to the Gila River here merely a large creek maybe 20 feet wide and three feet deep at the center and I plunge into the water and it is freezing cold and shocking and I wash the sand from my face, out of my hair, out of my eyes, my body and stumble back up onto the bank and sit shivering in the hot, noon day sun.

I remember the Voice of Eternity and look around in awe at the beauty of the Gila Wilderness, the canyon country I am in, grateful to be alone so that no one thinks me insane and grateful to the Great Gaian Mother of our bodies for giving me what I now call this DNA Body Machine, knowing that in only a few short years I will give this body back up to her for from dust we are made and to dust we shall return. All things in this reality begin and end - a fantastic and utterly novel experience for an Eternal Being. One that apparently we need to experience in order to negotiate the hallowed halls of eternity itself.

Jupiter Retrograde 2022 - Personal Astrology by David Sky

 

Today Jupiter retrogrades back to 29 degrees Pisces, the last degree of the last sign. This happens right about exactly as Mars retrogrades at 25 degrees Gemini. Collectively, there is some general sense of completing a cycle, of perhaps some culmination or perhaps an eclipse, not to forget this is happening in the midst of this Scorpionic eclipse season.

Jupiter the largest planet, the Great Benefic, the energy of expansion, optimism, inclusive not exclusive, open minded and lucky is also Zeus the King of the Gods who threw down lightening bolts from Mount Olympus striking humans who dared test his will - in Vedic Jupiter in Retrograde is said to bring Karma. I have my Sun in Sagittarius, ruled by Jupiter, along with Jupiter itself at home there by sign, and Mars and Mercury. I also have my Sagittarius Sun square the nodes of the moon at 29 degrees Virgo and Pisces, perhaps my most challenging natal aspect.

Jupiter first hit 29 degrees 27 minutes of Pisces, my SN on May 8th and this was about the time when I gave up on my YouTube channel that had meant so much to me for nearly two years. At that time, I gave up on a lot and for better or worse laid down into what seems a transformative process over which I feel no control and, in fact, have begun to suspect that this is the very purpose of what I am experiencing now with Pluto transit opposite Natal Moon while not the only challenge playing into this, the most profound. I take note that Jupiter will hit my SN again and finally just before it races through Aries early next year just days before my birthday on December 17th. I think that I am waiting for some kind of mouth to mouth resuscitation from the Universe and my best guess is that this last hit may bring it because the retrograde hit is only days away on November 4th and at this point just cannot yet imagine any kind of rejuvenation.

Simultaneously, Neptune that will be within orb of influence for all of us by transit as to Jupiter as it retrogrades back into Pisces is square my natal Sun that today is exactly opposed by Mars stationing retrograde. Saturn opposes Uranus for me this year as it conjuncts Chiron in its retrograde. The Nov 8th eclipse hits exactly my Progressed Moon now transiting Scorpio, not to forget progressed energy in any of this. My progressed Sun forms an exact semi-sextile to this Jupiter South Node conjunction so for me this must represent a profound karmic ending. My progressed Sun will enter Pisces in July of 2023 and I feel this will represent a profound change for me that will see me now at the age of 62 over 30 years likely to my end here on this earth.

But honestly, I feel now numb like maybe a random piece of wood on the ground. I barely have the physical energy to breathe, it seems. In some strange way, I feel as if I do not actually exist now. I am out of time and out of space. I no longer have the will to meditate and even prayer is almost negated. Oddly, I feel though that this is exactly as it should be and I feel little desire to fight back. Instead of struggling to stand up as I have done so often in the past, thinking much of this autoimmune attack in 2008 and how I was told that I would be dead within a year and how I shook that off and stood up and walked again and how now I instead just remain on the ground looking up passively at the clouds passing overhead with barely the will to think.

This eclipse on the 8th will also be on a Progressed Moon that is separating my four degrees from my natal Venus in Scorpio that was severely challenged last year by a Saturn Square culminating as a long Uranus opposition cleared, a real one two punch for our Gurl Venus. My love life and relationship stood up well to this outer planet scissor effect so what it was about was my own, internal relationship energies that speak as well to a SN at 29 degrees Pisces, my 7th House of relationship. This is something to keep in mind in terms of especially a challenging Uranus transit to ones Venus or the 7th House, that this does not necessarily mean the end of a relationship. It will have to do with Venus energies and relationship in general but think of it always first as a transit that actives natal (and progressed energies) and perhaps in the case or Uranus (or Saturn or Pluto for that matter) as a stress test such as an engineer might do on a bridge to determine the condition of its structural integrity.

Anyway, Uncle Universe. Uncle God. I got nothing. I got nothing but I am in here somewhere still alive.